Famine

HOHO~ Yeap, I went to 30 hours famine this year. However this time is a bit different, I am going alone and be a group leader!

 

Group Leader meeting before event start

Everything was just fine before the meeting. When everyone(group leader) was getting their group members, I sit there alone without any members!! LOL In the end, I ended up being a groupless group leader! 

Me and my group 28 placard

The groups beside me...

Open ceremony almost start and my box have been invaded by other group 

Though I have no group, the group beside me invited me to join their group (group 26)~ Then Mia legally put in group 25. Finally I am adopted in a "family"! Supposedly it is something to be happy but imagine you are adopted and the family member neglect you~ Sobs... Thats why am sit back at my own group box and looking at both group 25 and 26. They are near my box, thats why. I guess this is more or less the feeling of those who didn't have family or being adopted but being rejected or neglected by other family member. 

Last year famine also kinda have the similar feeling but this time could really experience the impact and to actually reflect on the emotion of mine is kind of good for me though~ Hehe

This time famine is a bit special because we have to take our shoe and socks off too! Well, shoe less for 6 hours is not fun at all!!! 

Sobs~ shoeless 6 hours~~ 

me without my shoe~ hehe 

Then we proceed to famine challenge One which is a budgeting game. Will not go into the game in detail la~ will be boring hehe! 

Group discussion with group 25 (Photo by Aaron)

The nearer group is my legal "family" while the group behind is my informal "family/neighbor" haha! Have to admit, both are really a good leader! Salute!

Group 26 in second famine challege

Group 25 in famine challenge 2

After challenge 2, its another break and concert time! This time is not as "high" as last year la, but kind of enjoyed it~  

The next morning we went to Bukit Jalil hockey stadium. 

Giving HOPE the children! (btw, its raining)

This year break fast! COCO crunch! (I prefer last year~~)

Mia and I, nothing to do so take photo~ 

Then we BREAK FAST!! hahah! Right after that we go back to HELP and back to home we go!! 

WE"VE MADE IT!! hahaa Its not that hard by the way~ hehehe just emotional stuff la. Its better if you have comrades haha

Going home~~

Finally can go home!!!

Feeling

Sides, I believe everyone have both sides, negative and positive. Our memory conceive both negative and positive memory too. Normally we would only remember the negatives one better than the positives one. 

Sometimes when we think that we have no one for us, when we think our life sucks, we really do get depressed until a certain limits that we forgot we have those happy positive memories too! 

I have my moment. I born and grow up as a normal ordinary kid. Nothing really special in my life and I do not have any special ability. Everything was so normal and ordinary. To be honest, I am quite jealous of those who have exciting and interesting life, special ability that people admire. When thinking of these, it really made depressed to the MAX! How I wish I want to be like them! 

As time goes, I starting to calm down and guess what, life isn't that bad after all. I have friends that better than me! They sing better than me, think better than me, look better than me, speak better than me, understand better than me etc etc! Yes yes, I am trying to make myself better, but isn't it better than being depressed and not able to do everything with all our best condition? 

Yes, my point is that, no matter what happen, when we are facing negative events, we should be sad for it, of course but not too long until it influent our daily life. Feeling bad is not bad, it is what we should be, but we shouldn't let that control us? We might ask when is enough, but i would say, if that certain sadness or emotion stop us from doing what we should be doing, I think that is enough and we must calm ourselves down, trying focus on the bright side or doing things that we are suppose to do. 

A car can run as fast as it wants, but if the speed stop or destroys things around it, that car must slow down as it is not the original usage of a car. A car is for transportation purposes, if it runs too fast, it will get broken and it sway away from its original purpose

Live your life to the fullest, when we experiencing an emotion, especially negatives one for too long, we will lose a lot of chance to experience others good experience! 

Proud

Today's bible study is rather productive as it really made us all think and share. To me, or most of us, book of Matthew is a book that almost ALL of Christian will read first and in my case, it is the first Book I read from the Bible. That is why, to me it is kind of a challenge as my pride keep distracting me from paying attention by saying "hey, I read this already, what's so big deal". However, today managed to put down this "ego-ness" and really reflect on the materials. 

However, the one that caught my attention the most is this girl, 823. 823, really do change a lot in term of maturity. Have to admit that, well done. I could see the passion to learn, to change and to listen while we all sharing, dropping notes and stuff, its really a big changes! I am proud of you girl! 

Proud Proud

loneliness

Dated with someone who I didn't date for a long long time ago! Before I become close with them, A is the one I always hang out with. A always will be there when I am lonely and alone. However, I guess the more I become close with them, emotionally, mentally and physically, I kind of ignored this A person... Feeling with A again is somehow, weird and well, it just like meeting an old friend of yours~ 

Loneliness, it is something to be thanked for because if it is handle in a right way, it will help you develop yourself. It might make us stronger, in a sense too. Loneliness, a very normal nature of human. I don't think anyone will not feel lonely, but the important part is how do we deal with this loneliness...

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Boon Han! Long time didn't hang out together already! Its time for me to really catch up with my imaginary friend~ MUAHAHAH~~ 

Blessing

Its a blessing that we have someone to talk to that will understand us, listen and don't judge us.

Its a blessing that we have someone who are willing to understand and listen to us without judging us.

Its a blessing... 

When will I find someone that willing to listen... When will be a time that I am the one talking and not that one who is listening and nodding and worrying and thinking... 

Light

Was sitting in the living room, listening to songs, chatting on msn but staring at the this light "day"dreaming... 

Not in a very good mood, but all the sudden, light. Light can brighten up dark places. Light can somehow help people to feel less depress/scare. Without light, human really can barely live like now, no? 

But, somehow, being a light is not easy. Light will have to endure the heat, the pain and most of the time others don't really appreciate them. Loneliness, I suddenly feel that somehow, it is lonely, all alone. No matter day or night, it will remain still there making no noise, waiting people to use them. Never want to shout out "HEY, I AM LIGHT!! SAY THANKS TO ME".

Appreciate those Light besides you, acknowledge them as sometimes, even a strong emotional person need a hug from others. 

Gadget!

I guess one of the things/interest that remind me that I am still a normal MALE is that I like gadget! Well, not that female don't like it, but majority of the guys like gadget more than girls! So, introducing my gadget! 

1st, my lappie! 

            

This friend of mine been serving me and my friends for more than 2 years! He deserve some applaud! However, I think 2 years old is kinda old for a lappie no? Maybe he deserve retiring too! Too bad, not in the near future! Thanks lappie for your services! 

2nd, my personal handphone! 

Yeap! k618i~ Yea, I know this buddy don't have much powerful stuff but he still be there when I having problems and stuff. SMS and calls!! Hehe! 

3rd, let me introduce you guys to Joy! 

Yeap! A PSP!!! Aww~~ how beautiful she is~~ My daughter of course! Gaming, online-ine, msn-ing, music-ing, pic-viewing, and video-ing, ALL IN ONE!! Love her!! hohoho! 

Lastly, let me introduce a new member~ 

Its a new digital camera!! Nikon coolpix s210!! Muahahah~! (yea yea! in the end I just want to show off with my new digital camera~ haha, what to do? I am excited about it!) Welcome to the family cammie~