jealous?

He seriously dislike me and favor my other siblings, what a good parent he is.

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stay away

Look dude, I know I still talk, listen and smile at you but that doesn't mean that I like you, so please don't do anything to make me dislike you more... I am genuinely wanted to treat you nicely so don't ruin it... seriously... If its not because of her, I don't think I need to even talk to you. so, stay far away from me! we are not even close!

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hu?

So much for liking to be alone huh~

i seriously starting to really hate myself...

...

Oh well...

lonely

hmmm... The sudden feel of loneliness... So contradicting, lol... seriously, I wonder the whole gmu is coming back or what, =3=

I'm kinda getting more and more active in Facebook and some part if me asked me to actually stop as I might really accidentally post some personal on my wall, which is not something I am comfortable with but at the same time someone can actually know about it. weird huh? and pathetic...

oh well, another post that will make the future me laugh~ lol

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what..?!?!

Gorgan! What exactly was that???

Gorgan: "Urg... I dunno... "

*lets just let my defense mechanism do what it need to do for once ba...*

"its a happy day"

Waking up early in the morning, enjoy the weather, had a cup of coffee is refreshing for my soul which been very busy, tired and dried due to the busy-ness of life~

Singing song praises God definitely refreshed my spirit~ Never thought I am able to play guitar and sung song~ Thank you Lord~

Who says church songs are too old to "feel" His presence? It just the matter of what heart we use to worship Him~ Amen? Amen for me~

Have a happy day, my loves~ and friends~ xD

"Its a happy day~~"

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i bet its all the effect of caffeine! but i only drank one cup... =3=

Ah ha~

Finally realized something I have been asking myself for a long time: Why I can't always seems to say the right words while trying to comfort others.

Reason, because I don't need words from others as well, what I want is just a hug, a nod, or even silence, as long as I know you are listening...

attachment

"i don't like you anymore..."

it hurts more than I expected... sigh.... attachment....

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experience, maturity, work

Growing up... I always thought and feel that I should treat everyone as if they are more important than me, well, it is not always wrong la, but it kinda made me even more lacking of confidence, esteem and self worth, which feel sucks...

This few months experience, especially today made me realised that, hey, it is not always that case, yes, they might be important but doesn't mean you ain't human and you don't deserve to be respected as well! In fact, I have my right to be respected too! I can always demand for things that I need!

hmmm.... Today is an eye opener day.

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Actually, its not that I don't want work, its that I am afraid to face the stress working gives me. photography is my passion, I love to be photographer, but event photographer gave a lot of stress! especially you know you are given expectation to be met! don't get me wrong, its not that I regret and don't enjoy it, just that it reminded me that I really hate stress and I am lazy! XD it also reminded me that, hey gorgan, it is time to be mature, no more being childish... its time to grow up dude... like now...

good experience and reminder for me~ thank Lord

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superego and ego~

Hey gorgan! Here is the deal, if you could start discussion by weekends, then you are allow to go Syiok and finish the rest of it there~ ok?

Gorgan: hmm.... sounds great to me~ xD

Help

I want to help

I really want to help

I really wish that I could help

I...

How can I help when it isn't my problem to begin with....

*Sigh*

precious and valuable

"Precious and valuable, always there for me... But of course, that can't go on forever." Yui (K-On season 2)

I always know, those who are precious and valuable to me right now, will eventually leave me someday in the future. However, I knew, I understand that, and it doesn't stop me to love you guys even more as, you are the few I chose to let you in into my personal space, to the most vulnerable space in my heart.

I love you!