A visit from African brethen!

Today is my turn to shared in youth fellowship. My topic is "Loving your neighbour". Well, not going to share what i shared la, but, at the end of my sharing, Philip invited a few African christian from a church nearby our church to pay us a visit. Well, 1st, they are super friendly! Besides, their voice is sooo powerful and soothing! By the way, this isn't preplan visit, Philip saw them when they are entering their church and Philip just go and ask them to join us for 10 min!

To visit us is actually one of their wishes before they move to another church which is on Sunday(tomorrow)! Lord's time is so wonderful~~~

AGAPAO

Love
Love in Greek is called agapao and it means love have to has action. Only after today, I truly understand what it really mean by love has to work with action. A lot of time, people said falling in love is easy, but, I personally don't think so. To really love someone, friends, family or girl/boyfriend, we need to love them by heart and love them through action which is not easy. Why, love, actually needed courage, without this, it aren't real love, it is just, we think that we love them but when the love is put into testing, it will normally fail.
I wish I could be more courageous in loving those around me. Though I could love all of them who are in my life, I only wish that I could love those who are close to me and show them by a sincere action.

Messy thought

Messy thought :
Something cannot be rushed:-
Just learned that while assignments and studying can be rushed, learning skill/ability cannot be rushed. The more we rush, the harder we will learn. So, P.A.T.I.E.N.C.E we learn through these tasks.

Friends:-
Sometimes when we are too close to someone, we tend to care too much and lead us to unnecessary thought and feeling. Though I am still going through this "storm", I guess the S.U.N is still waiting up there above the dark clouds. As soon as I come out from this "storm", IT will be there! Besides, I do have a few "NAKAMA" with me now!

Self:-
A lot of time, we usually cared and loved by some close friends in our life but we often felt that no one is there for us as we are always looking at the world through our "video camera" and interpret what we "recorded" with our own scripts.
A.K.A SSAB

Multiple "scripts" aren't good at all time:-
Understand and catch thought too quickly are not often a good thing.

False PHOBIA:-
I found out that I've been misdiagnose myself with blood phobia as the main thing i fear is cutting through HUMAN MEAT.

Lesson learnt

There is one thing I've learned during this weekend. All these years, I've been a busy body! I took too much burden of other people on my small shoulder. Although I don't have much burden to be carried on my own shoulder as I already passed it to someone else, but those burden that originally not mine is on my shoulder!

It is not mine to carry anyway, why I care so much to carry it for them? Besides, they didn't even ask me to do it!!! Boon Han Boon Han... WAKE UP!! *slaps slaps*

To carry others burden without "permission" is sure suffering.... Trying to un-carried them now....

だいきらい。。。。

やだ！！やだやだ！！！大きらい!！！わたし！だいきらいいいいいいいいいいいいいい！！！

Competitive

Competitive, today in mc100 class presentation, I suddenly have this "AHA- moment" lol~ I found that in this world, no matter who, we tend to compare ourselves with the others. Even comparing to those who are close to us. We wants others talent, we want to do as well as the others, we want to be the best, we envy of what others can do better than us and normally, we tend to overlook what we can do because we place all our focus to what others can do and what we can't do. I am sure, to a certain extend, we, as human can't really run away from comparing ourselves.

"Gosh, he did it so well! Can I even compete myself with him?"
"Issh, I wish I have that talent too"
"Haha~ I am more superior than you guys!"

I am not saying above examples apply to everyone, just, these are some of the more extreme and obvious examples of comparing ourselves.

Yea, by blogging this post, I admit I do have these competitive mindsets. Though it just remain there awhile, I really hope that I don't have it at all. What I really think is that if I did my best, and thats enough, how others look at me wouldn't be important. But... the question is, can I?
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Doraemon: See!! Told you not to be too confident in yourself gelar! See what have you done?? I also don't know how to live this life edi!
Tommy: What? No confident good mer? Always alone and when you needed someone, is there anyone for you to hung onto? No right? You a! For 18 years being such a coward not enough ah??
Doraemon: But at least I am satisfied with what I have ma! At least I am happy!!
Tommy: Yea right! Ask yourself whether or not you are really happy la! Always think about others, what about you? You are not human la?? You have your rights too, remember DORAEMON!!
Doraemon: So what? I used to be a "BLACKHOLE" remember?? Before I let you in charge of my life, I am known as blackhole that suck only negative stuff, now, I am doubting myself already... Besides, I am really happy that I can help others okay? You don't understand me la!!!
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As you guys can see, often, confident and self esteem contribute to the thought of being competitive, and it slowly leads to others negative feeling and thought. Stay away from being too confident!! LOL

OH?

Thanks aaron!! LOL

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What's your favorite anime at the present time?
Used to be One Piece, but, NARUTO appeal to me MOST~~

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
Lets see... the ability to.... control the water!!! MUAHAHAHA

3. What do you think of your brother(s)/sister(s)?
Oh? they are.... hmm, challenging~ hehe

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
lala land maybe? haha

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To have a perfect relationship with others~ hohoho~~

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yea~ so?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Friends ><""

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I would spent half and save half of it~~ (reminds me of cts ==")

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Depends lor~

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Oh? must I?

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Human with double face~ muahahaha

13. What is your ambition?
Psychologist!! Don't ask me to be specific plz~ hehe

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Please tell me, I would like to improve myself~ ^^

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?
God~ Friendship~ Relationship~

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
well.... nah~~

17. What is the thing that you really want now?
Wanna watch BLEACH!!

18. Why does it hurt when you punch someone?
=="" coz he/she has pain receptors?

19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
yea... *sigh*

20. Are you hungry right now?
=="" no... but if u give me delicious food i will help you to finish it~

Gosh... @@"" okay la, I'll be kind~ I wanna tag whoever that wanna be tagged~ haha

Lala land?

Everyone~ Say hi to Boon Han~~~ He is in charge of this life now~~~ WEEE~ By the way, Gorgan kinda need a break now, so please do excuse him.

I am wondering whether will emotion/feeling spread among a group of people. Nah, to a certain extent it does~ Geez, having this stupid low self concept about myself for days already and guess what, it is attacking the emotion/schema storage of intimate wardrobe. Yea yea, basically I am crapping lol!! Starting to have doubt that people aren't treating me the way they think of me? or rather, there is like they are distancing from me... Geez crap...

Naruto, between Naruto and Bleach, I found that I like Naruto more. I think Friendship is one of naruto's main theme. In the same time, I've been wondering whether Naruto ever thought of this "I aren't worthy enough to be treated so good...."“僕の友達、仲間、みなさん、ぜんぜんありがとう　と　ごめんなさい。僕はぜんぜんばかですね。。。”みなさん、だいすき、しかし。。。
わたしのいもうと、大丈夫ですよか？わたしの友達　と　仲間、大丈夫ですよか？

PS: Look look Sarah sensei!! I can write in Jap edi~~ hahaha! *whack*

Just kill me...

AISHH! I wonder what month/year is this, problems come one after another, without fail. Gosh, starting to get super emo bout not able to help others and i eventually made things worse. Thanks Gorgan...

=.="""" AAIIISHHHH! Someone just kill me...