SHY

Do you know what? All along I know I am a shy guy and well, do care a lot about what others will think of me and this is kinda a problem to me now... Why? I know it quite sometimes now but today I suddenly ACKNOWLEDGE it! LOL

Its... my shyness and care about what others think kinda stop/prevent me from improving my photo-taking skill... Yea... Believe it or not, it does has a great impact on me...

So, I made up my mind and make myself to do this in the future; Will take photo no matter where I am; Will take photo no matter who I am with; Will take photo no matter when I am!!! MUAHAHAHA (of coz la, I wont take photo at places that don't allow me to take and I will not take photo of people that don't want to be photographed and won't risk my dear son's life taking photo on the street alone~)

And if I am desperate... I will just wear a singlet, a shorts and a slipper to college!!! XD

Hi~

Amends

Hmm... Wanted to post something... But I forgot what I wanted to post!!! LOL

Anyway, let's just crap and hope something will come back...

Something happen few days and ... Ohya I remember!

I know what is the root of the problem that I created, I know the consequences of my action, I know what will I lose in the end, I know where I am heading, but among all these, I really wanted to know what can I do to amend what I did...

Its all out of the intention to help someone who is hurt and it ended up a disaster for another being. It is all because of my failure to hold on to my rational part as the emotional part overwhelmed my logic. It is all because I have been depending on my own decision making...

One's intention to help someone will leads to a betrayal of others unintentionally. How wonderful human is...

I am sorry that things can't be turned back and I do know my words have no strength, I just want to know how to amend things, fix things that I have once done wrong. Chance might be what I need...

Random

LOL! I so need to PS myself a new banner!! XD XD XD

Anger

When feeling overwhelm, when anger take place, when people around me are hurt; they clouded my rational judgment...

Sheesh... better luck next time in controlling it eh, gorgan....

Personality test (again~)

Another personality test~~ Got it by Jas~~ hehe

Your Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to ideas or people you care about. You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values.

You stick to your ideals with passionate conviction. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by a quiet reserve.

In everyday matters you are tolerant, open-minded, understanding, flexible, and adaptable. But if your inner loyalties are threatened, you will not give an inch. Except for your work's sake, you have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

Your main interest lies in seeing the possibilities beyond what is present, obvious, or known. You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you--human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you care deeply about something.

You are curious about new ideas and tend to have insight and long-range vision. You are interested in books and language and are likely to have a gift of expression; with talent you may be excellent writers. You can be ingenious and persuasive on the subject of your enthusiasms, which are quiet but deep-rooted. You are often attracted to counseling, teaching, literature, art, science, or psychology.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can happen even when, objectively, you are being as effecive as others. It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become overly sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself.

And my suitable career~~

• actor
• architect
• artist
• composer
• consultant
• editor
• holistic health practitioner
• interpreter or translator
• journalist
• librarian
• massage therapist
• musician
• occupational therapist
• photographer
• psychotherapist
• religious educator
• researcher
• scientist
• social scientist
• speech pathologist
• teacher
• writer

Am I on the right track? XD XD XD (perasan-ing~ haha)

personality test

Got this personality test from someone in Facebook and hey~ wanna share and look at the last point!! So true right? XD

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

If it is not now, WHEN?

If it is not now, when is it???

These few days made me realized something, something important that could change my life, or maybe it already taken its effect!!!

1 year and 5 months in Psychology course, what have I learn?

Socializing, controlling emotion, critical thinking, understand others and myself, independent... After all these, it's time to decide, to put skills into action and heck, I do now want to be that Gorgan anymore... Changes might be hard, more criticism will be shooting at me, road might be tough but, if not now, when is it to challenge it? While I am still young (lol~) and allow me to say this, handsome~ XD XD XD, and have social support, if it is not now, when will it be???

I've seen other grow, started to fly, and now, it's my turn to try... Fail or not, I don't know and what I know, even if I failed, I still did make improvement after I try! ^^

Wish my all the best bah!!

Whats your worth?

I believe human being will some how know how much they worth in this world but the question I am asking myself is, how much do I worth? Priceless? as in, no price? or a price that no one can ever know?

Searching and looking for that worth... What will my future be? No idea...

what happen?

What la.... Is today love day or what? Why is it all the movie/series I watch are love theme related... ==""