Energy

Human, something just strike my head when I am trying to.. relax?? XD

Without self control, without self awareness, without self discipline...

Without considering of others well being, Without caring, without the energy to do all these I have mention...

We will be easily offended, we will lose our temper easily and will be hurting a lot of people before we can know it...

I wanted to control, I put energy to maintain the relationship, to be true when mistakes/issue arises

It is because I care. I appreciate, I love

Being an introverts, taking energy out of myself is pretty hard, but don't get me wrong, though it is tiring, I enjoy it, I wanted to do it,

treat me however you want, i will not change the fact that i want to appreciate it~ ^^

(reminder for myself)

Cloud Strife ii

"I will not fight a meaningless battle"
"I need to convince myself, I need confirmation..."

I have my thought, I have my feeling, I have my mind.

But I just can't express them in the way that I want it to be.

Hmm... Maybe its the result of closing myself for many years?

Maybe its the biology makeup?

No wonder I like Cloud so much, again, I found similarity~ Hehe.

Wonder when will I find my Tifa? Or rather, when will I find the "right" Tifa! =P

Oh well, random thought~

Cloud Strife

Cloud Strife
(the one who unsure about himself, the one who have doubted himself)

Finally realized why do I like Cloud so much~

We have quite some similarity in term of personality~

^^

L.E.A.R.N.I.N.G

Is feeling bad always good? Is putting control on someone always bad?

d.e.p.e.n.d.s.

Reasonable bad and control is good for us. Although we do not like the way it is done to us, it somehow shape us more.

Again, what is consider reasonable?

What is consider "overly done"?

Everyone have a different benchmark for them, however, I do think honestly is really what pull people together, regardless of how the situation might be at the moment.

As for myself, I prefer to get hurt and learn AND deal with it, rather than being super confident and feels happy but know nth about it.

Well, I do acknowledge there are special case~ so, again my thought! ^^

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I am seriously starting to hate public transport, AKA KTM... the delay, the super PACKED people, the super stuffy space... Gosh....

A New Post

Finally, a new post!

Gosh, how many years did I abandoned this blog?!? Oh well, let me just update a bit of my life.

Well, as most of you might know, I am currently in Year 3. Seriously, I do not know is it just me, Year 3 is like another level of education, the workload and stress has increased! At least my conscious responsibility has improved as well. =P

Chosen my Thesis topic and really hope that I could get it!

Photography - been stopping it for a few weeks now, but... I have finally decided and found what really motivates me in photography! What I wanted to shoot and stuff, so, my dear photoblog reader, I will be posting again real soon! ^^ (partially thanks to aaron~ ^^)

AND!

I have a terrible financial management... ==""" Yea, I know, Therefore, I am writing here so that you, readers can be my "witness". I want to have a better financial management...
(Gosh, no turning back....)

Yesterday I bumped into Peter Khor and guess what? He told me he found my blog! XD XD Via google!!! How scary is that.... Ohya, Sir, if you are reading this, HI! =P

Well, thats all for now ba.. chiow!

G

Realization

Realization.

Sorry it took me like forever to realize that I've been spoiling a lot of fun event just because I did not manage my own emotion properly...

Look at me...

How...

Disgusting to look like this when it's suppose to be a fun outing and sorry, but I know, and realized that it actually disturbed everyone, if not some of you who are close to me.

Thanks for worrying/feeling because of me and sorry if I made you guys felt so.

Now that I finally realized, I will make sure it'll be under control when it's needed yea~ ^^

*huggies*

Sorry... neh?

and thanks for willing to accept me even I am sometimes/most of the times a burden~ ^^

care,love,appreciate

Which is more painful?

Can't see those who you cared forever?

or

Those who you cared doesn't care for you anymore...?

I guess it pretty painful for either one huh...?

Random thought sparkled by some anime~ =P But, this is life eh...? I prayed that I will appreciate now as those whom I cared are still here with me and care for me... ^^

JsYS,PL,YW,YY
Love you guys! *hugs*

Malacca

Muahaha!

Been to Malacca last few days to take a break from KL life! Seriously, everything there is in slow pace~~ Not exactly slow, kinda slow but it is in comfortable pace and with comfortable peeps! so yeap! I enjoyed!

Enjoyed eating there, enjoyed bonding there, enjoyed taking photos and enjoys HOSPITAL INN there~ XD XD If you dun get it, nvm.. ignore that! XD XD XD XD

But after that, I don't know if its because i am too tired, I found out that ALL my photos are wasted!!!

Geez...

Oh well... at least I really enjoyed myself there~ *HUGS* thanks guys~

Well, I will post a proper post someday in this week as I am really tired.. super tired now... mentally, psychologically, spiritually, physically! XD NIGHT!

Urge! Read it at your will..

Urge... I suddenly have this strong urge to blog about this. Look, what will be posted below is merely my belief and although I am strongly believing in it, it is merely my belief and I need to have some output if not this urge will burst within me!?

XD

So, what is this urge? Christianity...

Yes, this is about Christianity. If you do not want to read it, please DON'T! I respect every rights of you, as a Psychology Student. But if you are interested in what we Christian believe, by all means, go ahead and read.

So many people out there are challenging christians on why are we believing in some sort of nonsense that bring sooo many controversial. Why are Christian, who suppose to be the goodie goodie doing so many badie badie?

People asked me why did I "convert", that time, I did not know what to answer and they will just turn around, walk away and laugh. However, I have my answer now...

I have MY answer now!

What is it? Simply, belief, faith!

Yea, seriously, when it comes to Christianity, there are no logic behind it. Yes, we can always explain why prayer can make us feel better, why some act in Christianity sounds logic and stuff because most of them are ritual by HUMAN! Of course it's logical when its human! But then again, to me, what really in Christianity is

1. Knowing there are One and only God in this universe. Although there are many religious out there, knowing and believe there are only one God who created all things on earth is important in Christianity. (Look I am not offending any other people out there who have their belief, and as mentioned, its an urge to blog and kinda explain to others what my belief in Christianity is, so, no offence..)
2. Knowing we are all sinned and no way we can wash ourselves clean. (yea yea, everyone knows this ==" but heck, a lot of people ignore this! including Christians... sometimes)
3. Knowing and believe that Jesus is God's only Child and only He can save us and how? He died on the cross for our sake! This is where FAITH came in... Only those who really believe are be able to be saved. Yea... No logic behind this, and it's impossible for us to look for answer in this world!
4. Next is confessing our sin and ask forgiveness from God through Jesus Christ who died for us! the grow as a Christian. About Trinity, I wouldn't say much bout it since this is an over view of what I as a Christian believe
   
5. Know, believe and follow what the Bible said. This is where all the controversial came in. Christianity is simple. Follow the Bible and not doing anything which oppose it and you are fine! A lot people wasting a lot of time arguing whether this action is right or wrong! Why?? As long as you know it's not opposing the Bible then just do it!
   
6. Finally, as commanded in Bible, throughout every book in the Bible, tell everyone about this Gospel so that many can be saved...
   

Basically these are those which I believe to be the core of a Christian. A Christian is THIS easy...

For those who didn't listen to the full gospel and know nothing about it, please do consult me if you are interested.

For those who knows did listen to part of the gospel but not all and did attend church, please talk to me as well, I will let you know what the Bible say and not what I say...

For those who are interested and know a bit bout Christianity but don't wanna talk to me, please, go read the New Testament! The whole gospel is in New Testament...

Done... Phew, the rock in my heart is kinda gone! XD XD

Well, thanks for reading! XD

Well, again, this is merely a thought, belief and a place for the output of my urge so, anyone get offended, I am sorry... I did not target anyone, things which stated above are merely what a normal Christian believe...

Finals! Over! year 3.. starting soon...

First of all, YAY!!! Finals finally over!!!

And finally I have the motivation to blog! Well, previous days don't feel like doing anything besides maple~ XD

Well, this finals is something I don't think I will forget for a long long time! The day when I sit for my final papers, I was seriously overwhelmed with the excitement of finishing exam and going for Tenji with my college mate! Due to this positive motivation to finish my paper, I missed out TWO 10% short answer question and hand it in to Peter Khor(my lecturer) and prepare to walk out!

"Gorgan!"

When I was walking out, Peter approach me and say, "what is this??" Pointing at the blank question paper... "you want to FAIL a??!" I was like... O.o" WHAT THE HECK! XD XD

Well, yea, so in my final days in year 2, I set a legend that Peter will mention in the future class~~~

LOL! Thanks Peter~ =P and sorry! XD

Tenji was great~ the time spent there I mean! ^^

Sheesh... the bad part is, I will be in year 3 when semester starts....

Thesis, the work load then.... graduation day... Hmm... What will I be when I graduate? What will I do? How will I cope with it? It's seriously a scary world out there... Hopefully when I am finished with degree, I am a ready man to face the world!

The other thing is I will surely missed these bunch of monkey friends~ Lets come out and yam cha some times in the future yea! XD (Thanks to you-know-who who prompt me with this... XD)

Suddenly, S.H.E's songs hit my mind~ "wo bu xiang wo bu xiang wo bu xiang zhang da~"

XD

Put that aside, I need part time!!! If you need any assistant photographer, please leave a comment here~ You can look at my portfolio through my photo blog. If you have an event job that need to fill in, let me know as well~